Light of Yours

Cause I'll be your light, when hope becomes hard to see :)

I would stay there forever..

I miss when the autumn came


I miss when the wind touched my hand softly


Soft just like when you came into my life


Without I realized it, you successfully make me decide, that you are the best part of my life.


Everytime you smile, I love it.


Everytime you laugh, oh my, I can't help but laugh too though it's not that funny!


And everytime you look at me, I'm melted like suddenly disappear from this world.


It's funny when I know the fact is so opposite with what I'm thinking about. 


He's close, but actually he's far away.


He looked at me deeply, but he did the same thing with that girl.


His smile, his touch, his laughing, are only illusion... which will never be real.


But it's not a fault to have a deep feeling with him. Just by seeing he's laughing is by no means painful for me.


His smiling face has become my own special source of pleasure. 


The most natural thing to do, Sweetest thing to remember.


I miss him, every now and then.


And if there ever comes a day when we wouldn't be together again, keep me in your heart. And I would stay there forever...


#fiction

It's Love, It's not Santa Claus

McKenzie: [drunk] So do you have a boyfriend?

Summer: No.

McKenzie: Why not?

Summer: Because I don’t want one.

McKenzie: Come on; I don’t believe that.

Summer: You don’t believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?

McKenzie: Are you a lesbian?

Summer: [laughing] No I’m not a lesbian. I just, don’t feel comfortable being anyone’s girlfriend. I don’t actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything.

McKenzie: I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Summer: Really?

McKenzie: Nope.

Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you–

McKenzie: Break it down!

Summer: Ok. I, like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.

McKenzie: You’re a dude. [to Tom] She’s a dude!

Tom: Ok but wait–wait. What happens, if you fall in love?

[she scoffs]

Tom: What?

Summer: You don’t believe that, do you?

Tom: It’s love, it’s not Santa Claus.


(500 Days of Summer)

Emma Watson, The Real Fashion Icon

As a fashion addicted, I do adore Emma Watson. Besides she is the perfect combo of brain, beauty, behavior; she always looks stunning on whatever she wears.

As a Vogue Icon

Black seriously looks glamourous

As a Burberry Icon

On a Red Carpet with White Chanel Dress

Her Chanel Bag makes me carving to have it too!

Her spring collection

Still, Indonesiaku.

It's not about nationality.


It's not about heroism either.


It IS about the Indonesian people will.


To make OUR Indonesia getting better, even BEST.

I dressed her up with kebaya and look the result! Pretty good ey? :)

Proud of showing OUR Indonesian Flag!

Celebrating Indonesian Independence Day at Embassy

Belajar, belajar, dan belajar.

Apa yang bisa ku lakukan untuk Indonesiaku?

G.N.A - Kiss me (Translation)

Kiss me ♥


Could it be a ray of light?
Or a single path to guide?
That has brought you right to me,
Straight into my life...

Now I'm thinking to myself
Where will you be heading now?
Now you've opened up my eyes
It's as if I've lost my mind
Every move I make these days..
My heart is where you are..
Won't pretend it's not for real
I won't tell my heart what not to feel


... ♥


I'm breathing in
I'm breathing out
Just to stay alive
But then you go and look at me,
I fall in love again...
Loving every precious moment
I spend by your side
It's always been you, and only you..
I'll tell you why,
Listen to me


♥ . . .


I'm breathing in, I'm breathing out
Just to stay alive
I can't say goodbye

The words won't leave me
Everytime I try
All I want to hear, are three words
Only you can say
Oh I gotta know
Won't you let me know?
Will you kiss me?


. . . ♥


When I'm stuck for words to say..
Out of breath, and out of faith
I reach out my hand towards you..
You just walk away
Now my hope has turned to tears..
Will you now confess?
Just how you feel?


♥ . . .


Never go too far
Never leave my side

Even if you are the reason..
that I may cry
Just be there to hold me tight..
There is no where else I'd rather be...

. . . ♥



Have to post this song because I love it, it has a special meaning to me ♥ Actually it's the soundtrack of drama, and I love that drama too! The ending you can never imagine it, it's naturally lovable, loving someone for four years, finally blossoms and end up with happily ever after :D

My Second Hometown

Assen, The Netherlands


Tiba-tiba aku kangen sekali dengan kota itu. Kota kecil dengan hijaunya dan sejuknya yang selalu membuat siapa saja merasa nyaman tinggal di tempat itu.
Keramahan orang-orangnya, para pengguna sepeda yang jika bertemu saling bertegur sapa walaupun tidak saling mengenal, dll.
Bahkan aku... Masih bisa merasakan dan mendeskripsikan bagaimana tinggal di tempat tersebut.
Rumahku terletak di Ravellaan Straat. Itu bukan kompleks/perumahan seperti tipe-tipe rumah di Indonesia saat ini. Rumahku berada di tepi jalan, berderet dengan 5 rumah lainnya. Kebetulan rumah-rumah yang ada di situ semuanya milik perusahaan tempat bapakku bekerja pada saat itu.


1. Rumah pertama, aku tidak terlalu kenal pemiliknya siapa. Yang jelas penghuni rumah itu memiliki anak perempuan yang lucuuu sekali :D
2. Rumah kedua, rumahku! hehe
3. Rumah ketiga, milik seorang guru di British School yang aku kenal sekali, keluarga Warner. Keluarga itu berasal dari England. That's why I always love to hear they speak because British accent is so joyish! Hehe
4. Rumah keempat milik seorang keluarga dari Brazil, mereka baik banget deh pernah memberi hadiah sepeda untuk adikku hahaha.
5. Rumah kelima milik seorang keluarga dari Nigeria, anaknya Chidiebera yang paling sering main ke rumahku karena dia teman baik adikku :)
6. Dan rumah terakhir milik seorang keluarga dari Indonesia juga! yey senangnya akhirnya ada orang Indonesia juga di lingkungan itu. Keluarga itu sama-sama ditugaskan dari perusahaan yang sama dengan tempat bapaku bekerja.


Dan di sampinya lagi, terdapat setapak jalan sepeda yang tidak pernah sepi. Orang Belanda, apalagi yang tinggal di kota-kota kecil memang lebih prefer menggunakan sepeda untuk berpergian.


Dan setelah itu terdapat danau dan juga bebek-bebeknya. It's so effin' beautiful seriously! You have to see it by yourself!
Jika summer atau spring, aku, dan juga adikku sering memberi makan bebek-bebek itu dengan sisa roti yang sudah tidak dimakan.
Dan jika winter, seluruh danau itu membeku dan bebek-bebek itu pergi entah kemana! Tapi kembali lagi setelah cuaca sudah mulai hangat. Lalu, di samping danau juga terdapat bukit yang sering digunakan anak muda jika winter telah tiba untuk bermain ski dengan menggunakan sebuah kayu dan mereka duduk disitu lalu didorong oleh seseorang dari atas bukit itu. Atau hanya bermain snow ball dan membuat snowman.


Dan yeaaah, sepanjang jalan itu, aku masih mengingatnya... 


Jika diberi kesempatan lagi, aku ingin sekali kembali ke kota itu. Kota kecil yang hijau dan nyaman sekali!
Kembali ke kota itu dan mengajak seseorang untuk ikut melihat indahnya setiap detail yang diberikan kota itu :))


Here are some captures of that place:




                                                    1. Winkel centrum pada malam hari

2. Bar, cafe, atau tempat makan-makan di centrum

3. Groningenstraat, jalan menuju rumahku :)

4. Jalan menuju British School 

5. Zaterdag markt, biasanya hari sabtu centrum ramai karena ada pasar-pasar.

6. Tempat belanja paling oke nih di Assen! :D

See? Interested to visit? :)

Haha

xoxo

Someday, it's gonna make sense

I want to know more and more about him. I want to know what things he likes, and things he doesn't. I want to know everything, about him.


I want to be the one who will be worth for him...


But I don't want to force my feeling. Just let the time flows. If he is for me, no matter what he will be back to me.


Hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk setiap orang :)


"Nothing to worry. Someone is always be for someone who is worth for it. When it's time, he will come"

My new life

"Be ready to say goodbye, because even it's the bitter one, someday it will bring you out to the another sweet hello"

I am facing a new life again, and my life brings me here. The place I've never thought I would be before,
SMANSA :)


Although, honestly, I firstly hated my dad's decision for coming back to Indo sooner than its due time because I was still enjoying my life there in Holland; living in asrama or enjoying the fresh-air of Spring. 

But then I knew life must go on.


Then I came to this place, "SMANSA"


...

First time I was doing the ceremony on my first day, I just thought like, "so typical of Indonesian school doing on Monday."

But when I heard the song of its school like,


"Keluarga SMA.. Kita kan serukan, SMA Negeri 1 hidup..."


Aww! It was.... epic.


I don't know if it was just me or maybe somebody else also felt that way, but seeing how nationalism or how proud the students of their school, I was like being touched at the very moment.

Haha I don't know what I want to tell actually, but I just try to believe this quote, "Rahasia Allah itu indah.."

We may never know what will happen after one second, two days, and years after... But just believe in that.

I also don't know why I was brought to this school. I don't fancy this school too much, but well... maybe this is the best plan.

Here are some captures of my life in SMANSA:

- D'scienza UNO plus some exchange students from Malaysia *tapi belum semuanya ikut :( 

Jadi, bersyukur saja dan selalu nikmati apa yang ada. Yakinlah yang diberikan Allah adalah yang terbaik :)

Because I have a dream

Actually i do envy much for people who already had their own dreams.


Because for me, it's just too confusing to see which is the right path that I should take, or even I am happy enough to see if I can pass any test or exam so I don't have to do it again.
Not much like I want to be bla bla bla, and I will do bla bla bla.
Sometimes, I also want to search my own dream, so that's why I've taken such a potential test, or even major college quiz for many times just to know what I actually want to be! :(
I've prayed for many times to be pointed, to make me realized, but I haven't seen it yet..
So that's why..
Firstly this blog's name actually is "because I have a dream"
but then I realized, do I really have a dream? So I changed it.
Ah SHT, now I am in year 11 which means it only needs one year to think about it, before I graduate, and before I regret it all.


When I asked my friend for an advise, she said what thing do you like? If you found something do you like, then you would find your dream automatically :)
yeah I like many things. That's the problem.


1. I like drawing, creating something nice.
so that's why I want to be an architect, civil engineer, designer.
2. I like doing diplomatic things. 
so that's why I want to join UN, embassy, world organisation, also take the "Ilmu Politik" or "Hubungan Internasional"
3. I want to help people who need other people's help.
Someday I think I want to be like volunteer but for teacher specialist. I will help children who don't have money to continue their education. I want to be someone who can help them!
4. I also want to help this world's environment.
And for this last I'm not really sure about it. But when I joined MUN event in The Hague, there I could know that this world really needs something to prevent the environment problem, such a global warming.
For this case, maybe I will take "Teknik Lingkungan"


Ah yeah just those, but really confusing.
But I do hope as days go by, I could find my dream as it flows :)


N.B: Buat kamu yang udah punya mimpi, jangan menyerah dan terus berusaha sampai kamu mendapatkannya! :D

because

i want to be the one who makes you happy

to be the one who can heal your pain

to be the one you can share your stories with

to be the one who can be your spirit whenever you´re down

to be the one who can catch you whenever you fall

to be the one who is always be there so you´ll never be alone

the one you don´t want to let go..

Doei en Tot Ziens!

"said our goodbye by a taxi in the snow"

"all my bags are packed, I'm ready to go. I hate to wake you up to say goodbye"

I know it sucks if we have to say goodbye even the good memories never let us to do it.

and yeah, besok.. kisah itu usai :)

tapi hanya secara fisik saja, aku yakin dalam memori itu pasti masih akan terus berlanjut...

Ya, besok hari Rabu tanggal 26 Januari gue akan balik ke Indonesia.

goodbye Holland, and welcome back Indonesia. terima kasih untuk kenangannya selama ini, terima kasih telah mengizinkan gue untuk tinggal dan mencari pengalaman hidup disana.

Sekolah Indonesia Nederland, Asrama SIN Wassenaar, Den Haag Centrum, British School, dan Assen ♥

DOEI EN TOT ZIENS!

Healing Incantation lyrics

Tangled Movie - Healing Incantation

Flower, Gleam, and Glow

Let your power shine

Make the clock reverse, bring back what once was mine

Heal what has been hurt,
change the fates design

Save what has been lost,
bring back what once was mine

What once was mine...

♥

To the way it was

May I ask to get it back, just like the way it was???